This week I was studying actuarial tables during part of my duties at my job. These tables are compiled by very smart math-minded individuals who predict "life expectancy" for people given their gender and current age. As an aside "studying" the tables may be a stretch that would perhaps be more accurately stated as "glanced at" or "perused".
What I found was that the actuaries have determined that I have 31.93 years of "expected life" remaining. To some that might seem like a lot of years, to others that might seem like mist of a summer morning settled over the pond as the sun rises. To me, it gave me cause to pause and think about my life and the time that God has given me to this point and the time He has already chosen to give to me from this point forward. I have lived 46.35 years (59.2% of my expected life according to our friendly actuaries), and of that life, I have lived 27.35 since coming to a saving faith in my Lord Jesus Christ (I'm sure that all you mathematicians out there will note that 59% of my life to date has been lived with the Lord, giving a strange symmetry to my life at this moment).
All of the math is interesting to me, but what is of importance to me is that I grasp onto the fact that my life on Earth has a definite and pre-determined end and that how I fill my days will reflect directly on my God and my church. I am in the midst of a seemingly unending commitment and re-commitment to fill my life by pouring it out and gaining by giving. I have failed so often and "re-committed" so many times that without the strength of my Lord and the knowledge that He has never given up on me, I would have given up long ago. I want my life to be remembered as a life that was wholly given to the Lord, that was lived to the fullest by living the freedom that comes with knowing what is true and good and right and giving my life toward doing those things. The key part, however, is not that I do what is right and good and true, but that I do whatever I do for the glory and honor of my God. If He does not receive the glory and the honor from the things I do and the way I do them, then I will have failed to live my life for its intended purpose.
I may have a day, a week, a month, or perhaps 31.93 years or more to live for God and reflect His light and His glory to those around me. I hope that I can live each day in a way that expresses to the world and to God: "if today is my last day on Earth, I pray that it will be a day that brings glory and honor to You, God, and that if anyone sees me today, they will see a reflection of You and a demonstration of a life lived for You."